To preface this post I have to tell you about my friend Betty Guerber. Betty must have reminded me of my mother; warm, loveing and always with an encourageing word, always happy to see me. She would stop me and tell me about seeing my kids do something nice, or tell us nice things about us as a family - so you can see why I love her. She was one of our RS presidents. She passed away about 3 years ago. Ok that's who Betty is.
On Monday night I was lying in bed dreading to go to Chemo the next day. It isn't that it's so difficult, it's not. I just didn't want to have to endure a week of feeling fatigue, gassy, bloated, chemically poisened etc. So in other words, I was dreading it. Eventually I fell asleep but at some time in the early hours of the morning- you know when you are not sure if you are dreaming or if you are awake, Betty came and gave me a big hug and told me how much I am loved. I saw her whole being. She looked wonderful. I felt wonderful and all of my fear and trepidation went compleatly away leaving me with peace about going to Chemo that day. I felt like I was being comforted and supported by family and friends beyond the veil. They know what's going on and how I'm feeling.
In Jeffery R. Hollands Oct 2008 conference talk: (which I slept through while in the hospital and just read this morning) The ministry of Angels; he says: " ... God has used angels as His emissaries in conveying love and concern for his children...Usually such beings are not seen. Sometimes they are. But seen or unseen they are always near. Sometimes their assignments are very grand and have significance for the whole world. Sometimes the messages are more private. Occaionally the angelic purpose is to warn. But most often it is to comfort, to provide some form of merciful attention, guidance in difficult times." Elder Holland goes on to talk about earthly angels and ends with this: "May we all believe more readily in, and have more gratitude for, the Lord's promise as contained in one of President Monson's faviorite scripture: "I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left,...my spirit shall be in your [heart] and mine angels round about you to bear you up."D&C 84:88
So Chemo went fine, but the night after wasn't all that wonderful and the infusion flush had some glitches, but I was calm and not stressed over the little things and for that I am thankful for the angels beyond the veil who love and support me, and for the angels here right now who love and support me. Thank you.
2 comments:
Thank you so much for sharing this very personal experience. I really appreciate the reminder that angels are among us. I love you tons and am sorry you have to go through this. You are such a great example.
Yes Kathy, thank you for sharing. What a wonderful experience! You will be able to remember how you felt with her for a long time. What a good friend she is.
I am sorry that you have to go through all of this but at the same time I'm grateful that technology is such that they pretty much know how to help you.
The side effects that you are enduring are awful- but do keep us informed--it is interesting to hear about your good days and the bad days and why the bad days are bad.
It was so fun to have Devin and Kim overnight with their cute little family. Makayla (sorry if they are all spelled wrong..)
is such a great helper, they all love the baby and hover and smother her with lots of love!
The baby, Ella? it dawned on me in the middle of the night that she reminds me of her Grandma Cindy.
Carter is so handsome! He is a Kim Simpson all over--so cute.
Little Bree--she says no-o-o just the same way that Max does. You ask him if he wants ice cream and he says no-o meaning yes. Such fun ages! You have wonderful kids.
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